Through all our struggles my kids are my world. I must say I have some of the smarted and talented kids. From football to dance and honor roll to the International Baccalaureate I must say they do it all. Yet in still at times they drive me crazy. I don’t know how many times I can repeat myself in one day but, I’m sure I’m setting some type of world record.
Though my kids do it all and I try to do it the best I can; however, at times I feel like a failure. I feel like a failure as a mother, wife, and in my life. On a daily basis I juggle so many task and often times I’m too tired to even complete. I look at others especially single mothers and they appear to be handling life far better than me. Here I am married with four kids and two jobs, yet still I’m struggling daily to hold it together.
I pray daily and I try not to worry yet. It is so hard to stay focus and have faith.
So I started this entry last week when I was living in a moment of self-doubt. Yet, I know deep in my heart that I am the best parent that I can be and my kids are a direct reflection of me. I smile today knowing that despite my storm someone else is going through one far greater than mines.
So for today I am maintaining my sanity and moving forward focusing on being a better all around me.